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Tuesday, August 8, 2017 ,1:13 AM (+ 0)
it is 12:52AM and i am having late night thoughts. well i know it isnt that late of a night but mehhh this can still be considered as one of my late night thoughts i guess, cuz i rarely have this thought & it usually hits me at night (usually after 12AM) so yeahi jusr want to get rid of my anxiety so here goes. i dont know why but i think the person i like aka my crush seems to have this barrier where no one can try to go over that barrier especially me i guess cuz he knew that i like him. okay sure everyone has their own barriers where at the other side, there is another personality that only gets to be shown to those who are close to us. yeah i get it cuz i have that barrier too. but how can i get close to him if there is that barrier? yeah sure i respect his "privacy" but hello i am trying to make efforts to get to know you better here and it just kinda saddens me that sometimes when i ask him about himself, he just kinda shuts me off & it hurts he always makes things awkward for me when i asked him a question which i dont think is that personal and then shuts me off by remaining silent for a few seconds. okay who wouldnt be awkward if you are in the same situation with your crush? hmmm. he did that to me a few times but i refused to see it as a big deal and the only thing i can do is to remain positive but sometimes it just gets to me that he is actually annoyed with me & refuses to let me be close to him & that is really sad but nahhh i know that it is just my anxiety all over again cuz he is a nice guy maybe he is just too shy with me whenever we meet up #stayspositive but really, he is a nice ( |
